When I was in graduate school, I did not know how
to cope with the stress and criticism of my media projects from the professors.
Many teachers don't know how to empathize with their students. In 2008, I
decide to learn how to crochet because I want to try something new and create
something other than what I was producing in graduate school. I remember
feeling calm crocheting and making very intricate designs only from my
imagination. Even though my patterns were complicated, it was a free
flowing-process unlike what I was experiencing in school.
I wasn't focusing on the criticism from my professors or any other
negative thoughts. I wasn't even counting, because I created only from a chain
stitch and whatever came out of the process was the product. I would just let
my hands form the shape. The meditation process is like this way of thinking.
When I meditate, I not thinking but I am listening to myself from within. I
discover something about myself and that continues to shape my identity. As I
learn new things about myself, I am calmer and approach life with ease.